Sadness

My best friend lost her fight with colon cancer yesterday.  She was admitted to the hospital on Friday and brought home on Monday by her family.  She wanted to die at home.  Her husband, girls, sister, aunties, uncle, FIL,  her Buddhist guide and I were at her bedside with her when she crossed.  It was a peaceful and beautiful transition for a beautiful woman.  As much as I am going to miss her, I know that it was her Path to walk.

I also know that we have been friends before and will be friends again many more times.  Go with the gods, my friend.

And a partridge in a pear tree…

http://www.youtube.com/v/2Fe11OlMiz8&rel=1

This is a great video!  Enjoy!!!  And happy holidays to you all!

Time Management

I belong to another forum of lampworkers.  The question of the day is how do you manage your time when you are self employeed as an artist.  I sure wish I knew.  I try to set up a schedule to follow but I never seem to manage to do it.  I really need to get a planner and just start blocking out periods of time for different things and then actually doing it.  I feel like I jump from one thing to another.  I spend WAY too much time on the internet. 

Then there are those days where everything just goes right.  Every piece of jewelry I make looks even better than I imagined.  The chainmaille sparkles.  The lampwork has totally perfect ends and just fit in the press.  I love those days.  Of course, the opposite is the days where it all looks like dog sh*t no matter what I do to it.  I can string, restring and string again and it just doesn’t come together.  I potatochip all my rings.  My ends are bad or, even worse, I drip the damn bead onto the table.  Or I drag out all the PMC stuff–and there is LOTS of stuff–and totally go blank on what I was thinking about making.

Keep a notebook at hand to write down your ideas.  I don’t draw very well but I can do well enough to at least have something to reference later.  That’s probably the biggest tip I can give.  Except, of course, to just sit down and do it.

Frustration

I am so through with this.  I’m tired of hurting.  I’m tired of having trouble walking.  I’m tired of being tired.  I am so through.  I’m glad I see the doctor on Thursday–assuming I can get out in the snow.  I have a lot of questions.

I want to go and make beads on Friday.  There’s no way I can drive 110 miles total and sit for 6-8 hours in front of a torch.  Gah.  I want my life back.

I called Lesa today and had a total meltdown.  She’s not used to hearing me hysterical, I don’t think.  LOL  She’s coming in tomorrow and I’m looking forward to seeing her.  It’s her birthday tomorrow and I don’t have anything for her.  Wonder if I can get a chainmaille bracelet made for her tonight.  Off to see what rings I need….

Better…

Finally I’m feeling better I think.  I had lots of good company this week and that helped.  My friend Mari came in on Tuesday and spent the afternoon with me.  We never stop talking.  LOL  Lesa came on Wednesday.  We pretty much don’t stop talking either.  Then Jennifer came in yesterday and spent the afternoon.  She’s a new friend from Open Torch that I haven’t known for long but just feel really comfortable with.  I’m really glad that I met her.  Next week Terrie is going to help me get to my doctor’s appointment.  Hopefully after that I can be a little more independent again.

The cats are getting quiet annoyed with me by this point.  I haven’t been downstairs in almost 2 weeks and I think they are starting to feel like I do.  ENOUGH!  Not sure if I’ll try to go down tonight for dinner or not.  I don’t know why I can’t but I’ve been so good I’d hate to screw it up at this point.

I’m just bored today.  I can’t get into reading and even my chainmaille is not holding my attention today.  What I’d really like to do is have a Martini and some njice little munchy things.  Hmmm….wonder if I can get Don to do a Gibson for me tonight.  Probably not as he’s doing risotto and I don’t think it would go very well.